...another ramadhan has come....

alhamdulillah..grateful 2 Allah coz He has given me the chance 2 live till tiz ramadhan.... it's a bit sad tiz ramadhan..coz my beloved..truly dearest tok is no longer wit me..i luv her so much..n r8 now...i really miz her......she's been gone 4 almoz 2 years already..n d tyme wen i miz her m0st is puasa tyme..coz she used 2 c00k delici0us delicacies..my faveret f00d...juz name anytink u want..n she'll prepare it 4 u...we share s0 much faveret f00d..s0, when i eat my faveret f00d i'll b reminding 0f her... im so close 2 her..since my childh00d tyme..she's d 1 who practically raised me up..i hav lived wit her 4 as l0ng as i can rmmbr...we shared everytink..i even tell her all my secrets..im closer 2 her than im wit my m0m..n now..she's g0ne.. i still rmmbr dat day..my laz day of sem 2 exm of asac..its d laz paper..chem...ive been feeling restless since d n8 b4..im eating wit my rum8 as usual..n d dreadful call..my who-knows-how-long-havent-been-in-touch pak cag called..asking me if i was ok..i th0ught he asked me b0ut my exm..s0 i happily answer ok..then, he told me.. my family had planned not 2 tell me till evrytink was over..they know how cl0se im wit my tok..n they dun wan 2 distract me bcoz of d exm...n he's d 1 who break d news..u know how frustrated im at that tyme????? my mum keep denying eventhough i push her..but she broke up wen i wanted 2 speak wit tok...n i keep crying..i cant sleep that n8..i dun even rmmbr how i answer d exm d nx day.........

so, tiz post is dedicated 2 my dearest tok..i luv u so much...im sorry im not there 2 take care of u wen ur sick eventhough i promised 2 do so b4...im sorry im not able 2 bathed ur corpse..i regret i didnt say i luv u d laz tyme i call u...im truly sorry that u called 4 me till ur laz breath..im really sorry...tok..may u rest in peace... bcoz of u..im now studying medic..4 that's ur dream 4 of me r8? i really hope u r there 2 c me now...